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- great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or an objective.
Zeal is something I experienced when I first started this challenge, paired with both nervousness, panic, anxiety but all around excitement. I guess you could say that my journey with this challenge was a bit of a zigzag. It was like watching the stock market chart go up, go really up, then down, down some more, through the roof, crashing down and so on. It started with sheer excitement, looking forward to each post because inspiration was there and stories were a plenty and all was good. I felt I was writing from the heart and I was happy to share my experiences and wait for comments and likes. Then the days rolled by and the letters were getting hard to be creative with and some days I'm late. Most days I say up late to write a post and there was this one time where I had to make a post from my phone because I felt so committed.
Mid challenge and a little towards the end, I was starting to feel a little burnt out. I was questioning the sincerity and genuineness of my posts. The confidence that I had started with had crumbled away into dust, turning into self-consciousness and fear and I was very ready to quit. Luckily, I had friends that kicked my butt into gear and I pushed through with my zeal returning to me once more and I must say I'm quite proud of myself. It's definitely a bittersweet end. I've come across a few people due to this challenge and hopefully long term friendships will be made.
Words are funny little things made up of tiny little symbols that, throughout the years, we've come to know as letters. A lot of languages have the English Alphabet as their basis but even more language are based on native alphabets such as Arabic, Chinese and Japanese to name a few and each of these squiggly letters come together to form the funny things we like to call words. Not many people know that words can be quite powerful, especially if coupled with a powerful emotion. Words can be both destructive and building, they can hurt us but they can also heal us. A lot of people think certain words can easily be ignored, especially those who are hidden behind the veil of anonymity on the internet. Threats are spoken, death threats are angrily typed out and a whole lot of other nonsense is spewed containing an abnormal amount of hate that you can't really find anywhere.
A few words were said to me about my writing from a friend of mine. He always told me I could do more and I have potential and he wouldn't stop pushing me. At first his comments made nervous and unsure of myself, I'd spend a lot of times typing up something for him due to fear of being judged but as time went on, I got better and better. On the opposite spectrum of things, I had another friend that constantly laughed at my mistakes and made fun of them, he called my writing boring and uninteresting and would instantly drop out of an activity using the excuse that somehow my writing turned him off. Eventually, that affected my confidence and I grew self-conscious and unsure of myself.
Words are powerful things; they can be as destructive as any physical weapon when used to cause grief and pain and they can also be healing, comforting and loving.
This post is a bit late and somewhat short because I simply had no clue what to write about this letter and I've come to learn that it is my second least favorite with the first being K. It's quite a difficult letter, Q. Looking at a list of words starting with this letter, I couldn't find myself relating to any of them, at least not directly. I've had many suggestions and one of which was questions but I thought I'd write about what I was struggling with. Harder letters are yet to come but this one was one those that we don't use as often as the rest and I can think of a few letters that are similar. Then it made me think of letters in general and how the basis of language are a series of letters that we learn as children and while some languages share the same alphabets, most language don't. Some languages have more letters than the English Alphabet does and it had me wondering: If I was having a hard time thinking up a word for Q, what it would it be like if the alphabet had more than 26 letters which much more complex and difficult letters to write about?