It's a feeling I don't really like. It's a feeling I'm sure most people don't like be in this particular situation, I seriously don't like it.
I come from a culture where, in most cases, girls don't really get to do a lot of things on their own and, in most cases, they have to have a male guardian with them.
It's annoying, I know.
There have been moments in my life where I've had to deal with this. Where opportunities were missed because no one wanted to 'escort' me as my guardian and moments where I wished I was married so I wouldn't have to deal with this kind of inconvenience.
Today I am, once again, met with this inconvenience.
An event is coming in a few days; the firs of its kind in Saudi Arabia. It's a large conference for creativity and innovation and such and my friend has been imploring me not to miss it.
I had already resigned myself to the result of asking my father about it because I'm sure he'll say 'n'.
Of course his refusal doesn't stem from malice, I'm old enough to know that. It's a matter of safety and that he'd be too far away to protect me if anything happened.
It's endearing and frustrating at the same time.
So here I am. Stuck on the decision on whether or not to ask my dad. I fear I know the answer but should it keep me from trying?
I've always been jealous of similar girls my age from my culture who are brave enough to go out and explore.
I want to be like them but I'm too scared and too stuck.